Blindness to the Depth of Sin

This excerpt is a transcript of a sermon by Dr. Michael Reeves entitled “Getting Your Heart Right,” based on Matthew 15:1-28:

… the Pharisees could not understand the idea of the need for a new heart.

Well, that’s all a long time ago, but people haven’t changed.

And that enslavement to that view of reality, that failure, that blindness to the human condition, to the human heart, has just carried on.

And I’m going to give you an example of this from much closer to our day. I’m going to read you from the diary of an 18th-century man, Dr. Samuel Johnson, who first wrote the dictionary of the English language. A literary giant, enslaved man.

And I want to get inside his head and read you a few extracts from his journal. And you’ll just get inside his head.

This is very similar to what we’ve seen in the Pharisees.

Here we go.

September the 18th, 1738: “Oh Lord, enable me by your grace… enable me by your grace to redeem the time which I’ve spent in sloth, vanity, and wickedness. Enable me to lead a new life in your faith, fear, and love. And finally, enable me to obtain everlasting life.”

Nineteen years later, 1757: “Almighty God, enable me from this instant to amend my life that I may not lose the things eternal.”

Two years later, 1759: “Enable me to shake off idleness and sloth.”

Two years later, 1761: “I have resolved, till I am afraid to resolve again. Yet, hoping in God, I steadfastly purpose to lead a new life.”

Three years later, 1764: “I have made no reformation. I have lived totally useless, more sensual in thoughts, more addicted to wine and meat. Grant me, oh God, to amend my life… my purpose from this time to avoid idleness, to rise early, to read the scriptures.”

A few months later: “I’ve now spent 55 years in resolving. Oh God, grant me to resolve aright and to keep my resolutions. I resolve to rise early, not later than six, if I can.”

1765: “I purpose to rise at 8 because though I shall not rise early, it will be much earlier than I now rise, for I often lie until two.”

1775, ten years later: “When I look back upon resolutions of improvement which year after year have been made and broken, why do I try to resolve again? I try because reformation is necessary. I try in hope of the help of God.”

Oh dear. Isn’t it tragic? Isn’t it familiar?

It’s a life of the flesh, of fleshly pleasure, and then fleshly attempts to make himself a new man. It’s all self-effort, with prayers chucked up, asking God to chip in and help him do what he needs to do.

You can hear it here, and he’s even more explicit elsewhere. Johnson went through life ground down with guilt. He just didn’t realize his greatest problem.

He refused to accept the free pardon and welcome of God.

And so he tried to deal with his guilt by self-improvement.

And whatever your theology teaches, isn’t it easy to think, “I don’t have a big problem with sin. I can sort myself out. I resolve to do better. I can do better. And I will do better.”

And that is one of the clearest indicators of a Pharisaical blindness to the depth of sin. The sense that sin is just a behavior problem we can sort out with a bit more effort, with a bit of work by the flesh.

Possibly a tell here would be – have you ever been in this situation? I think it’s so easy for us today in our culture of self-affirmation to believe, “I’m not a deep sinner.”

And even if my theology tells me that we are all – we’ve all fallen short of the glory of God—it’s easy to forget that.

And I think a good tell on that is, have you ever been in a situation where, I don’t know, maybe it’s you’re late for something? You’re stuck in traffic. You’re stressed, you’re anxious. And then someone does something to really annoy you, and out of your mouth come these words. Or if you’re so good you managed to keep your mouth shut, but into your head come all these vicious thoughts. And sometimes they’re so vicious you think, “Whoa, where did that come from? ‘Cause I’m lovely. Where did that come from?”

You’ve forgotten the sewer of sin that bubbles up in all of us.

So I must ask you, dear friends, how much of a sinner do you think you are? How blind are you to the depth of your sin?

Because if you don’t see yourself as a great sinner, what has Christ got to offer you? Christ will never be a great Savior to you. You’ll never love him much unless you see how much he does for you.

So if you think of yourself as a pretty good person, you’ll never really know the joy of treasuring an all-sufficient Savior. You’re trapping yourself in self-identity rather than knowing the joy, the liberation of forgiveness.

And I say this however long you’ve been walking with Christ.

My mentor when I was a very young man, I pastored with him. He was on church staff with me. He was maybe the most godly man I knew. Some of you may have heard of him. He was a great preacher. His name was John Stott. And he was the most wonderfully humble, godly man.

And I remember once seeing him, coming in, he was in private, didn’t know anyone was going to see him. And he was on his knees in tears at his own sin.

And I remember thinking, I was young, I was thinking, “I’m not aware that there’s any sin left in this guy.” Here he is in tears at his own sin.

Because when the Spirit works in your heart, he is a Spirit who’s grieved by sin and he makes you ever more sensitive to sin.

And so those who’ve been walking with Christ a long time, they will find they feel ever more sinful, though actually the Spirit makes them look ever more glorious. They’re ever more sensitive to their sin.

So friend, are you sensitive to your sin? If you’re not, you’re sharing the Pharisees’ blindness, not the Spirit’s sensitivity.

God is so much more thorough than us. Where we would seek to change by putting a thin layer of paint on ourselves and painting ourselves neat and clean, God deals with us all the way down in the foundations of our hearts.

And this is his great promise of the new covenant—to give us new hearts of flesh, transforming not just the symptoms of our behavior but transforming the very desires that drive our actions.

Because the essence of our problem is, while we were made to love the Lord our God, we were created as lovers. And even when we sinned in the fall, we remained lovers. To be human is to love.

But our loves turned. And from turning from being lovers of God—as Paul says it—we became lovers of self, lovers of money, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God. That’s been our problem in sin. We still love, but we’ve turned to love the wrong thing. And that’s our real problem.

And we need our hearts turned to love aright. We don’t just need our behavior corrected. We need our very desires turned back to the Lord our God so that we love, adore, cherish him just as once we cherished sin.

On Being Forgotten

There is a question I find myself asking more often the longer I am in ministry. Not “How am I doing?” That question rarely provides any benefit. The better question, the more searching one, comes from the apostle Paul, and it has the power to expose any pretense if I linger with it long enough.

“What do you have that you did not receive? If then you received it, why do you boast as though you did not receive it?” (1 Corinthians 4:7)

Paul is writing to a Corinthian church given to comparison and party spirit. The quarrels among them, “I am of Paul, I am of Apollos, I am of Cephas,” were not really about apostles. They were about pride. They were about who had the better gifts? Who was more spiritual? Who was the better, most relatable preacher?

So Paul puts a question to them that reduces every such quarrel to dust. And it is this: What do you have that you did not receive?

The answer, of course, is nothing. Not the Apostles themselves or their gifts. Not the calling. More than this, not the breath in our lungs. Not even the faith by which we receive the gospel itself. Every part of life on both the natural and the spiritual plane is something given. For the Christian, the first stirring of conviction in our hearts, to the preacher, even to the last sermon he will ever preach, the whole arc of Christian life and ministry is gift.

If that is true (and it is), then there is no place left for boasting. There is only thanksgiving.

This reality should govern every preacher’s heart. And it is the foundation that two great voices in church history pressed home in their own ministries with a force that ought to humble every one of us who stands behind a pulpit.

A saying often attributed to Count Nicolaus Ludwig von Zinzendorf, the Saxon nobleman whose Herrnhut estate became the launching point for the Moravian missionary movement in the eighteenth century, captures the burden well. The exact source of the wording is uncertain, but the sentiment is thoroughly Christian, and many Moravian missionaries shaped their lives by something close to it. The Moravians sent missionaries to the West Indies, to Greenland, to South Africa, to Native American tribes, often at great personal cost and with no expectation of recognition. The saying takes the shape of three commands. Each one more difficult than the last.

“Preach the Gospel, die, and be forgotten.”

The first command is the calling. Preach the Gospel. It is what every minister of the word is set apart to do. It is not difficult to articulate. It is much more difficult to do so faithfully across decades, when fashions change, when itching ears multiply, and when the temptation to preach something else, something easier or more popular or supposedly more relevant, is constant.

The second command is the inevitable end. Die. It is what every minister will do, sooner or later. To say this out loud is not morbid. It is simply honest. The grave makes no exception for the preacher.

The third command is the hardest for the human heart to receive. And be forgotten.

It is one thing to imagine preaching faithfully. It is another to imagine dying. It is something else again to imagine being forgotten. It means laboring for years with no monument left behind. It means pouring out the gospel into a generation and watching the next generation forget your name. That is a kind of death that runs deeper than physical death. It is the willingness to be a faithful but unremembered servant in the service of the Master.

And yet this is exactly what most preachers in church history have been. The names we remember, men like Spurgeon, Calvin, Edwards and Whitefield, are a small handful out of the hundreds of thousands of faithful pastors who have preached the gospel, died, and been forgotten by the world (while being remembered by the Lord). I suspect that most of those forgotten preachers are precisely the ones who would have been most pleased to be forgotten, because they understood what the saying captures. The work is the Lord’s. Every last aspect of it. All the glory is the Lord’s. Ultimately, His approval is the only one that matters.

The second voice is George Whitefield. And what he said about his own legacy is more striking still, because of who he was when he said it.

By any measure, Whitefield was the most famous preacher of the eighteenth century. He preached an estimated 18,000 sermons over his ministry, an average of about ten a week for thirty years, mostly to fresh audiences as he travelled. He crossed the Atlantic thirteen times, when transatlantic crossings were dangerous, lengthy, and miserable. He preached to crowds in the open fields without amplification.

Benjamin Franklin, the printer and skeptic, was so doubtful of the reports about Whitefield’s voice that he conducted an experiment. While Whitefield preached from the Philadelphia courthouse steps, Franklin walked backward away from him in a straight line, listening for the point at which Whitefield’s words ceased to be intelligible. He marked that distance, treated it as the radius of a semicircle, and calculated how many people could stand within that area. The number, by his own surprised reckoning, was 30,000. Modern acoustic studies have suggested that Franklin’s estimate was quite plausible, though such crowd sizes are difficult to verify with certainty.

Whitefield was, in his own day, the closest thing to a celebrity preacher the world had ever seen. He shaped the Great Awakening on two continents. Yale historian Harry Stout has called him America’s first intercolonial cultural hero. There were colonists in Georgia and in Massachusetts who knew Whitefield’s name before they knew the name of any political leader.

And Whitefield prayed this:

“Let the name of Whitefield perish, but Christ be glorified. Let my name die everywhere, let even my friends forget me, if by that means the cause of the blessed Jesus may be promoted.”

That is not a small-time preacher saying “I do not matter anyway.” That is the most famous preacher of his century, at the height of public recognition, surrounded by crowds, deliberately turning the ax on his own tree.

He recognized something the rest of us are slow to learn. The larger the name becomes, the more dangerous it is to the soul. The more the spotlight falls on the messenger, the more it shadows the Master. So Whitefield prayed not for greater fame, but for less. He asked God to let his own name perish, so long as the only Name worth remembering was lifted up.

There is irony to all this. Three hundred years later, we still remember Whitefield. We remember him, in part, because he prayed not to be remembered.

The honest pastor who said “let my name die” is the kind of man whose name the church wants to keep alive precisely because his self-forgetfulness was real.

The opposite is also true. The man who labors most to make his own name great will often have his name forgotten quickest, because there was nothing of eternal substance under the name in the first place.

John Calvin had the same instinct, expressed not so much in words as in the disposition of his bones. Before Calvin died in Geneva (in 1564), he had given specific instructions that he be buried in an unmarked grave, in the common cemetery of Plainpalais outside the city wall. There was to be no monument and no procession. His friend and biographer Theodore Beza records that Calvin’s plot was unlisted and, “as he had commanded, without any gravestone.”

Calvin had once written, in his commentary on Moses’s burial, “It is good that famous men should be buried in unmarked graves.” His own burial honored that conviction.

I have been to Geneva. I will be honest: I visited before I was Reformed, and a Calvin tour was not on my priority list at the time. I did view the Reformation Wall, but then went quickly on to Interlaken for a holiday. I wish now that I had stayed longer in the city and seen the Saint-Pierre Cathedral, where Calvin preached week after week and where the Reformation took shape under his ministry. But I have been there. I have stood in the city where Calvin preached. And I can verify that no one can show you Calvin’s grave. The man who reformed that city, who shaped the theology of millions of believers across the centuries, who wrote the Institutes that are still read in seminaries on every continent, lies in the Cimetière des Rois somewhere, and we cannot find him. The point being, he wanted it that way.

Calvin wanted no shrine to himself. He wanted Christ to be the only monument left from his ministry. The same instinct the Moravian saying put into seven words, and Whitefield put into a public prayer, Calvin put into an unmarked plot of earth.

There is a pattern here worth noticing. The preachers whose names have endured most powerfully across the centuries are very often the ones who fought hardest against their own legacy in their own lifetimes. Whitefield, Calvin, Edwards, and others all share this instinct. They wanted Christ to be the only Name lifted up. The Lord, in His providence, has often kept their names alive in the church anyway, but always in service of the Name that is above every name. There is no contradiction here. To love Christ’s glory above one’s own is the very disposition that the Lord delights to honor, and the very disposition that, in His sovereignty, He sometimes uses to preserve a man’s testimony for centuries beyond his own life.

To be clear, Scripture does not forbid the grateful remembrance of faithful servants. Hebrews 13 even commands it: “Remember your leaders, those who spoke to you the word of God.” The point is not that remembrance is wrong. The point is that as ministers, Christ’s glory must matter more to us than our own name.

So what is the application for the rest of us? For pastors with smaller pulpits and shorter reach? For believers who have never preached a sermon, but who serve the Lord faithfully in obscurity?

The answer is the same. The question is not whether your name will be remembered. The question is whether you would willingly trade every recognition you have ever received for the certainty that Christ was glorified through your work. If the answer is yes, then you stand in the line of Whitefield and Calvin and the faithful Moravians. If there is hesitation regarding the question, then Whitefield’s prayer is the prayer to make your own, until the answer is clear.

This applies to far more than ministers. The mother raising her children to know the Lord. The elder serving quietly in his local church. The greeter at the door who welcomes every visitor by name. The saints who set up the Lord’s Table before the service, week after week, and clear it away after. The man at the sound desk who never preaches a word but makes sure every word is heard. The volunteer who uploads the sermon to YouTube so that it can reach a soul on the other side of the world. The faithful giver who supports the work of the church month after month, not to be seen by men, but as worship offered to the Lord. The believer who shares the gospel with a coworker, not knowing if fruit will emerge. All of them stand in the same calling. Faithfulness in the unseen places of the kingdom is no less honored by the Lord than faithfulness in the seen places. The Master who watches the widow drop two small copper coins into the temple treasury watches you also. He misses nothing. And He forgets nothing of what is done for Him, even when the world has long forgotten the doer.

If no one on earth ever remembers your name, the One who matters already does.

The same Spirit who shaped Whitefield’s humility teaches every faithful saint the same lesson through Scripture: there is only one Name that matters in the end. Live for that Name. Serve that Name. Preach that Name when it is your turn to preach. Die in due course. And let your name be forgotten if it pleases the Lord. He will remember what is worth remembering.

What do you have that you did not receive?

Nothing. Not one breath. Not one gift. Not one sermon, not one prayer answered, not one soul saved through your witness. All of it is given. All of it.

So preach the gospel. Die. And be forgotten.

The Lord who gave the gift will keep His own glory.

Soli Deo Gloria.

Will Heaven Be Boring?

Question posed of a panel at a Ligonier Ministries event:

How boring heaven must be if all we are doing there is worshiping God. What do you believe heaven will be like, and please, expand on this thought? Dr. Sproul? [laughter]

Sproul: What’s wrong (with you people?) [laughter]

Well, I think, if all we have to do, for eternity, is to worship God, and it’s the God of the Bible, I don’t think there’ll be a second of boredom for our souls in that time. [applause] And I’ve, I’ve talked about that. I’ve said, you look at the gamut of feelings that humans have, to encounters with God in the Bible. Some people are driven to their knees, some repent in sackcloth and ashes, some people just weep endlessly, some people are paralyzed, or you see Belshazzar with his knees knocking. And you see all these different human emotional responses, to people encountering God. Now, I’ve never seen anywhere in the Bible where when God appears, somebody’s bored. [laughter]

That’s just not a natural human response to encountering God. But people may be bored in worship services here and then project that, infinitely and eternally, and say, am I going to have to be bored forever as much as I am listening to this preacher on a Sunday morning? That’s, that’s another matter. It’s not God that’s boring, it’s the preacher. [laughter]